The End is the Beginning

Well, obviously this collapsed into a big pile o' failure.

I can't deny this.

My new goal is to be somewhat chubby by April 2009. That sounds manageable to me. I don't know if posting will resume, but thankfully, I'm only talking to me.

So here it is Eric, you want quite a lot right now, but you're doing nothing to get it. Not even a little bit.

You keep stumbling, you keep restarting, you keep falling down the hole.

So begin with this, it's all about the little choices. The substitutes, the munchies, the movement. If you can take the better option 2/3rds of the time, I think you can make a difference.

I don't necessarily believe in you anymore, but someone else has to.

"I kept asking Clarence why our world seemed to be collapsing and things seemed to be getting so shitty. And he'd say, 'that's the way it goes, but don't forget, it goes the other way too.' " - True Romance

The Fit Stuff

WiiFit has arrived, apparently with luck, as they're hard to find now. My mom and brother bought it, but I get to use it... woo.

My review would boil down to: It's a great tool in your belt as you try to lose weight and get healthier. For someone who's already a regular exerciser, and isn't trying to change habits, it's probably not as useful. But the daily weight/bmi tracking, the ability to set goals, and the variety of exercises amounts to a good check on your own habits.

If nothing else, you get on it everyday, and weight/bmi is graphed, so you can tangibly see the changes you've been making.

There's yoga, strength training, aerobics, and balance games. The balance games are where you're less focused on exercise, but their point is more to help you develop control of your core areas, good center of balance. The yoga is kind of a nice beginners guide, though you could be doing the positions slightly off, and be less effective. I haven't done strength training, but a few of the aerobic exercises did manage to get my sedentary heart pumping.

It's not the silver bullet, the magic pill, that will change all your ways, but its certainly an easy way to keep track and start out with small steps towards your goals.

This is a war we cannot win...

I'm beginning a new attack on multiple fronts. I've got a pedometer to walk 10,000 steps a day for 2weeker. I've got a friend who "wants" to go walking more, but we've yet to convene that. I... am trying to eat breakfast, the proverbial they say it helps the metabolism, and I tend to go in cycles of neglect for breakfast. As for better overall eating, its there some days and gone the next in a flurry of pizza and free flowing soda.

So it's the usual line "we'll see what happens"

Oh Man

I'm kind of noticing I think the early effects of being fat on an "aging" body. In the sense that, soon enough if I don't get fit, my body won't bounce back as quickly, and cause more issues.

The specific example is helping a friend put together a piece of furniture. We didn't move that much, and I really didn't have to exert that much energy, but still managed to feel a little tired and be surprised by it.

It was really quite sad.

Stalemate

So, it's officially 3 weeks 2 days. Still no soda, barely any drinks but water, milk, and the occasional tea and juice.

The problem is that 20 min a day isn't going to cut it when I haven't changed any other eating habits. (And am following a pattern where I get the 20 min for three days, break, then start again). I still munch randomly, eat fast food more than once a week, and eat way too many breads and starches (Thats really what puts on my pounds, not the sugars and fats as much as the carbs). I also purchased a bag of chocolate skittles, which is skittles texture with chocolate flavors. You'd be amazed to know that it works for fruit flavors, but not so much for chocolate.

So the next change is two-fold: exercise more overall and more consistently, and pay more attention to eating habits. I could at least manage my portions better.

I'm also trying to figure out where to find a new job or extra part-time work, and I don't do well with all these fronts to work on, as is evidence by previous posts and life itself.

Nineteen Days

19 days.

No Soda, though I did have a soda using dream. Where I faltered and had a soda, got really angry at myself, and wondered how it happened... and then woke up.

15 of the 19 days I've gotten some form of exercise, at least 20 min.

I did write 14 script/story ideas over the two weeks.

Inadvertently coinciding with all of this is the launch of 2weeker. A website started by friends/acquaintances/people I don't know. Which seems like an interesting combination of guinea-pig voyeurism and collaborative web 2.0 effort.

I still have a few things on the checklist, we'll see how they go.

Nine days

It's been a lil over a week, 9 days. I've got a new system. The most technologically advanced you've ever seen.

A large white posterboard, with a checklist. I managed to work out 20 min on the treadmill or drop the rock (bball) for 20 min, or both, 7 of those 9 days.

I haven't had a soda in those 9 days.

I've written down story/script ideas for 9 days, once a day.

Small accomplishments, but positive none-the-less.

If a friend is actually reading this, leave a comment or message about getting together to drop the rock.

Magnolia

We maybe be through with the past... but the past ain't through with us.

Playing with Tiles

I'm beginning to believe that nearly all the changes I feel I need right now are kind of central to each other. And if I can just make one work successfully, the others will kind of follow more easily in a domino succession.

My domino theory simplifies things too much, much like the 1960's one. But the point is, they all share a root issue or two, and if I get through one, I have a road map for the others.

Specific weight posts might return, but for now this blog functions as my thoughts/concerns.

I make no claim, nor have an expectation about people reading this. I really don't know what it is about making journals publicly available, but it appeals to our generation. Maybe as a result of growing up with the Internet or a yearn to connect personally in a social manner.

Regardless, this is where I'm at, and where I am going comes each day.