Day XXXX

It's been like two weeks, and looking at the archives, about a months worth of "nothings changing, i keep forgetting to post, blah blah blah".

So it turns out while algebra is easy, it's even easier to avoid algebra all together.

I got yelled at tonight, for getting angry at being told I need to lose weight. I know the yelling is from frustration of a decade of me doing nothing to lose weight, but yelling at me and telling me the same things I know isn't motivating.

Instead, in some sort of juvenile rebellious attempt, that really is just an excuse, I demotivate myself, get into my own head and focus on the anger instead of making changes.

The apex or the trench of this journey is that I need this problem to be made my own. I need to grab it, and for no other reason than myself, make it happen. And I can't do it, its not easy, so I give up or wait till tomorrow.

The next day.
The next day.
The next day.
The next day.
The next day.
and The next day never comes.